Stuff and Place
Tied to everything of mine, nostalgia in the data as much as was in our homes, the basements and attics and bedrooms of storage, maybe these would be useful or maybe they have been stored with us in mind. we dont live close enough for them to be useful, we have no place to put them in the future. we move in puddles of nostalgia of the recent past that we never lived but we have the memory of it its what we produced and produces us, stockpiled and whipped whipping into loops that train the memories into our next hard tap. baudrillard said it to me on the subway before i knew it in this way in this scale before i was tapping the line this hard.
summer 2018 my grandmother is losing her memory drowning in the house of all of her losses and things have been thrown out but still the ledges fall and she won’t leave. my aunts and uncle want the house although i cant imagine why, for the money but it wont be much and it will be stained with their mother’s skinny dancing bones. i hope shell tap the floors grey when they take it. more stuff, generations of it, weigh on the places and the relations maybe as much as my feed.
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im trying to think whats been built since youve been here, there’s so much.
does it make you sad?
no.
people are moving out here and need entertainment.
arena for golf stadium with olympic sized car race track below. you can have football stadium sized dinner too.
its a joke, how is it not a joke
the adverts seem like jokes i cant wrap my mind around it as reality in front of me at Logan airport.
trying to ignore the plastic wraps, the portioning off of potato chip bags to help my dad’s cholesterol bagged off in the bigger bag to buy in bulk.
plastic everywhere. my hands shrink here.
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reprieve at the river although im on the computer it doesnt matter. things are lovely and light with my older brother. im happier and so is he. the only frames here are the sounds endlessly breathing past.
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what bears a place in your heart
what bears in you
what makes a site for which you care
longevity; repetition; familiarity; knowability;🝏